Mostly because it perfectly explains how I am feeling today.
THE HARDEST THING I EVER LOVED TO DO
"The hardest thing I ever had to do
was letting go of everything I ever knew.
19 years of dreams left in my room
as I buttoned up the jacket of my suit.
The hardest words I've ever loved to say,
was goodbye to my Mom and walk away.
Choking on my tie and on my tears,
as I walked down the hall into those years.
And the sweetest song I've ever loved to sing
filled the MTC on angels wings,
and the chorus filled my soul 5,000 strong,
and I wished it would just go on and on.
The firmest hand I ever loved to shake,
was my trainer's with that big grin on his face.
He grabbed my bag and put his arm 'round me, and whispered
"I'm gonna work those Mr. Mac's right off your feet!"
And the hardest words I ever anguished for
came just before some lady slammed the door.
And my trainer left me hangin' out to dry,
as a minute of painful silence rode right by.
But the hardest tears I ever loved to cry,
fell as I opened up my mouth and testified.
Between the tiny walls of a strangers living room
the spirit told their hearts my words were true.
And the most wonderful sound I've ever heard
is the sound of water running in the church!
As someone I've come to love got dressed in white,
my eyes saw their first glimpse of heaven's light.
The hardest thing I've ever come to see
is a man down on his knees in agony.
A drop of blood falls down on olives leaves,
and for a moment, He suffers there for me.
The hardest thing I ever loved to do
is getting on this plane, and commin' home to you.
In a million ways completely torn apart,
as a lands so far away still owns my heart.
In the most sincere prayer I've ever prayed,
I thank my God for each and every day
for the blessing of the man I've come to be
as I walk up and kiss my Momma's cheek."
I am so blessed to have this mission. Something I didn't know about missions before I came on one was how it expanded me as a person. Sure, I knew that I would come home with a stronger testimony, maybe some awesome close companion friends. But I never thought about other ways it would stretch me. I've learned to be a better cook. I completely changed my style of fashion. I learned medical tips. I increased my knowledge of myself and my personality. I learned much more about what I want for my future family. I suffered heartbreaks because of having Charity. I learned to get along with others, despite our differences. I've learned to keep myself accountable to my mistakes and repent. I learned to love unconditionally. I have learned to be flexible when things don't go as planned! I learned to let other people serve me, and many more things I'm sure I don't even realize.
I've added up a few totals for my whole mission. I do not say all of this to boast, but rather to give praise to my Heavenly Father for all of these experiences!!
Ive taught a total of 436 lessons to nonmembers
Ive taught a total of 142 lessons to less active members
I've added a total of 72 new investigators
I was blessed to see NINE baptisms happen
but I come home with ONE Savior, ONE testimony, ONE thankful heart, and NO regrets.
Signing off and getting on the airplane,